Don’t ever let yourself have some time to think about things alone. Read books, watch anime, go through tv series, draw stuff, write down thought nuggets, try shirt and canvas painting with the acrylic paint your bestfriend gave you, be busy at work, try to study on the class you are taking this summer because you’ve flunked it, shop for something for yourself when you’ve managed to nick some money, get a tattoo. Do everything that stops you from being idle. Because being idle leaves you alone with your dark thoughts. Then your dark thoughts makes you mad at yourself. And being mad at yourself makes you lose the only person who has ever been there for you—yourself. So take really good care of him and be happy.