He is ruining my friend’s life.
What the hell had she seen on him to date him? Again… after “breaking up” for the nth time. Then getting back together after just a tiny effortless display of regret from that dickheaded bastard. Haven’t she learned enough? That guy would never change. He will just always hurt her.
Can’t she fucking see that she was just being used by him? That he just comes back to her only when he has no other girls to fuck. That she is the lone person who’s stupid enough to be easily fooled by his words. He doesn’t even exert noticeable effort to match his promises. Well, not noticeable except for her, though, because this shit always gets her everytime.
I wanted my friend to get back on her life after this disaster called Her Boyfriend. I wanted her to be the happy girl I knew she was. I wanted her to break up with him for good.
But… but… but…
(It’s just kinda awkward and narcissistic to bend this back to me, but this is my blog anyway.)
Somehow in the back of my mind, unwelcomed thoughts are coming in.
Somehow I tend to ask myself, what if my ex’s friends actually saw me the way I see my friend’s boyfriend now? What if in their opinion, I was the dickheaded bastard who would always hurt their dearly beloved friend and would never change? What if they thought I was sexually addict and that I was just using him when I had no other guys to fuck, and that it was obvious to them that I was just fooling him around? What if I was the disaster in their friend’s life called Me?
After all, I haven’t heard his side, the same way my ex’s friends have never heard mine. The way my ex had retold his side of our story may or may not have been the same one-sided way my friend had retold us her story.
I don’t know what to do. All I tell her are probably the same stupid advices my ex’s friends might have given him. If that’s where you’ll be happy, then be it. Stuff like that… She is so hardheaded anyway, that I know she’ll never listen to whatever I would tell her.
No matter how much I hate him for being a dick, I can’t get off my mind that he might probably be just going through what I had been with my ex.